As I lay in the bed talking with the Lord, I was reminded again about the wonderful family and support system that I have been so blessed with. I have a wonderful husband who would truly give me his heart if I needed it. He is constantly affirming his love for me. Sometimes, I admit, I take advantage of such loyalty and devotion. Awesome, amazing, bright, wonderful, did I say awesome already, children. Two girls and two boys. Perfect, right? The two girls I did not give birth to but are forever mine. Both are very different, but each hold a special place in my heart. My oldest son is a cancer survivor and has autism. He brings such joy to my life. Through his eyes I am reminded of simplicity in the little things. And my baby, who is not a baby anymore, will be turning 11 on Thursday. He is exactly how we thought he would be....a nice combination of me and his daddy. Oh, I can remember such cute things he would say we he was little. 'When I's a mommy, I will .......too.' Bless his heart! He didn't know then that he couldn't be a mommy! Ohh how I love him.
But my true support has always came from my mama. She is truly the best. She loves me when no one else does, she holds my hand when there is no one to hold my hand, she laughs with me when there is no one to laugh with me, she cries with me when I am overwhelmed(which is a lot!), her love is infectious. I want to be the mother she is to me. I watch her gentleness with my children and my nieces and nephews. She plays with them when the look on her face says she's exhausted. She holds little hands and walks forever, where their little fingers point. I know that sounds like a grandmothers love, but it's a mother's love too. If I could be half that, I would be doing well. She helps me so much. To my son with special needs, she is his world! She can just walk in the room and his mood changes and know it's because that love that just beams from her face. I could never repay her for the gift she has given me. All the times when I had no one, she would play the role of whoever I needed whether it be a daddy, a best friend, a buddy, a secret teller, or even a father for my own child. She said, 'Don't worry honey, I'll be the daddy.' And I knew she would be too. And she was. When I think about her, I am reminded of these verses in the Bible:
Her children arise and call her blessed...Proverbs 31:28
Strength and dignity are her clothing, And she smiles at the future. Proverbs 31:25
She is the true Proverbs 31 woman that I strive to be!
I have so many others that inspire this blog as well. I'll get to them tomorrow...my cup is full!
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